CONTENT WARNING: this comic depicts medical abuse and psychiatric institutionalization.

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11th May 2018, 6:19 AM
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Nobody 11th May 2018, 6:19 AM
Nobody
i'm finally starting a new comic! it will update at noon PST every friday.
Nobody 13th May 2018, 1:31 AM
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Comments:

Rory 11th May 2018, 4:07 PM
oh i love the lighting and colour choices! very excited for the comic
Ry 11th May 2018, 4:16 PM
very, very excited! love the color scheme and so far the characters!
Nobody 11th May 2018, 10:27 PM
Nobody
it's funny, when i was working on this page, i thought, "wow, i love how literally not a single character on this page is a likable person" lmao
Gary 11th May 2018, 4:19 PM
im so excited for this ! already starting great with those colors oghh
erin 11th May 2018, 4:40 PM
so excited to read a longer comic from you again. as usual your rendering of light and use of color is phenomenal. cant wait to see where this is headed!
Iowasi 11th May 2018, 4:52 PM
I'm extremely excited to see another full-length longer comic from you!! I actually found your work through drop-out and it's still very important for me.
the lighting and coloring here is FANTASTIC, and is definitely an ominous start...
Raleigh 11th May 2018, 4:58 PM
I love how the warm lighting contrasts with the minty cool colour of the website's background, a very bold choice for the first page. also, that's lola's doctor from obyki in the second-to-last panel! makes me wonder whos gonna show up in the comic...
Remi 11th May 2018, 5:33 PM
[INCOHERENT HOLLERING]
kitsune-rokko 11th May 2018, 5:43 PM
kitsune-rokko
CG on the launch!!! And really strong showing for the first page too, the lighting, the hair rendering, the fur rendering! It's all so good and comes together for the film feel that you're going to treat everyone to this year!
fallingfeather 11th May 2018, 5:47 PM
Gottdang, the COLORS in this already! Amazing!
I can't wait to learn more about these characters! Also- isn't that porcupine doctor the same one from the Over Before You Know It side comic?
Nobody 11th May 2018, 10:24 PM
Nobody
yes it is! he's slightly younger here, and lacks the sideburns/chin scruff that he had in obyki, but that's the same doctor, because this is the same hospital.
you can also notice that the room kim is in here has the same chair model and curtain setup, and the same color code for scrubs. she is, however, in a different section of this hospital from where lola was, and she's still not in the psychiatric wing.
Guest 12th May 2018, 2:31 PM
Oooh, nice! It's always cool to see connections to the other stories. :3 Can't wait to see what happens next!
aqvva 11th May 2018, 6:03 PM
i am so so so stoked to read this! i love the rendering on this opening page so much, the texture you've captured here is amazing and the mood conveyed by your color choice is amazingly vivid. really excited to see where things go!
Guest 11th May 2018, 6:15 PM
god, doctors on weird power trips miscommunicating with eachother is already immersing me lol
Ruth 11th May 2018, 6:46 PM
so ready for this!!!!!!
Guest 11th May 2018, 7:01 PM
this gives me a really bittersweet feeling... i love your work and the lighting is beautiful but it reminds me of my own hospitalization ~_~
Guest 11th May 2018, 7:17 PM
is the implication that kim's in the hospital after an overdose?
Nobody 11th May 2018, 10:26 PM
Nobody
yes. the script originally intended that i should illustrate this more clearly, but i cut it as a personal choice, because i felt the specifics were largely unimportant.
for reference, kim overdosed on heart medication that was not prescribed to her. in her nose is a simple nasogastric sump tube for a lavage procedure, which staff have thus far neglected to remove post-procedure. NG intubation is very frequently used over oral intubation for patients who are 1) conscious and able to speak, and/or 2) patients who are considered possibly volatile or uncooperative, or prone to disturbing or biting the tube. the tube itself is slightly modified to wrap loosely around a muzzle with a simple connector, sort of similar to how you can connect glowsticks into a circle.
kim here is also pretty lucid because she was not anesthetized for the stomach irrigation, because, while it is a highly recommended part of the procedure, the only consequence for failing to do so is the discomfort of the patient.
Red 11th May 2018, 8:53 PM
gooooorgeous lighting, i love it, very excited to see where this goes
mascot 11th May 2018, 9:57 PM
ahhh i am so PUMPED for another longer story of yours. im very excited for what the comic holds!!!
trust 11th May 2018, 10:31 PM
oooOOOHOOOOOO YES I am so ready for another comic from you!! I got so sad not having drop-out updates to look forward to, haha. Thank you for your great work!
Guest 12th May 2018, 12:50 AM
oh man, just this week i had to go into the ER twice in one day and the second time I went in, they didn't have any records of me going in the first time, earlier that day. like wtf lol.
Peach 12th May 2018, 2:07 AM
Oh man, I really am excited to read another comic by you as many other readers have said! The lighting on this page is gorgeous.
r. 12th May 2018, 3:26 AM
ok it's taking me everything in my entire being not to scream how excited i am for this and how much i know it's probably gonna rip my emotions a new one but lets say i'm at god tier levels of excitement
and as other people have said, the coloring/lighting on this is reeeally nice
kibo 12th May 2018, 1:20 PM
im really excited for this one. thank you so much gray for your work, and i gotta say i really love your style, its better than ever <3
Guest 12th May 2018, 1:57 PM
i feel stupid because i cant process the pacing of this page
Guest 13th May 2018, 12:07 AM
don't beat urself up over it. the white space in between the two scenes with different doctors are when the timeline takes a skip if that makes sense
Guest 12th May 2018, 5:32 PM
approximately how long is this one gonna run, in comparison to drop out? also im surprised because i was expecting you to start borderline this year, althoguh that may have been me misremembering. i am very excited nonetheless and am glad to have another weekly update to look forward to
Nobody 12th May 2018, 9:34 PM
Nobody
god, i know better than to even bother with approximations at this point...
the script has 46 scenes total, which is about 10 more than drop-out, but many of the scenes have much less depth and are intended to be shorter (for example, this scene will be 2 pages).
however, even if every scene was only a single page, that would still be 46 pages, which would take a bare minimum of, at 4 pages per month, ~11 months.
i did intend to start borderline this year, but that script has ended up being 55 scenes so far, and it isn't even halfway through the plot (which is why i don't approximate how long stories will take anymore, coincidentally).
i've been thinking about having patrons vote on whether to work on side comics simultaneously or update the main comic twice a week instead to potentially get it done faster, but i'm not exactly aching to speed through it into borderline. the writing portions of these stories are the most mentally intensive part, yet as my schedule's gotten progressively fuller, it's never been given its own time to be worked on, because it's all behind the scenes, so i have nothing to show publicly for doing it.
i'm trying to fix my work ethic to be more sustainable at the mo, but i'm just assuming at this point that i won't have a lot of days/weeks solely dedicated to being able to write, so i'll need all of the extra time i can get to have borderline completely written.
Rory Maple Moth 12th May 2018, 7:39 PM
Oooooh I'm so hyped!!! That zebra is an ass.... so excited for this comic, good luck gray!
Nobody 12th May 2018, 9:47 PM
Nobody
thank you.
you're actually more on-the-nose than you think; that nurse is a zebra-donkey hybrid!
you can notice that his nostrils are a little more slanted and front facing than a zebra's, and on the next page you'll notice his ears are a little longer than a zebra's. that's also why his stripes are more faded and sparse, and why he's more of a beige/light brown rather than white.
Sunshine and Moonshine 13th May 2018, 9:30 AM
Been looking forward to this for months, so excited now that it's finally here! Congrats on the launch, it's always nice to have one of your longer stories to look forward to over the course of the week.
Also I really dig the way you write doctors, how even though the patient has issues it doesn't come anywhere close to justifying the power tripping and general condescending awfulness. Sadly quite reflective, especially once other specialists see you're also receiving psychiatric care.
Guest 13th May 2018, 2:12 PM
i like kim's personality so far
patron saint of envy 14th May 2018, 2:10 PM
First off, thanks for adding a transcript! It's nice to have some additional insight into what these characters are thinking and feeling. That being said, I think what I love most about this page is actually that you're avoiding clarity and presenting hospitalization as the deeply disorienting experience that it is. How easy it is to lose track of how much time has passed, who you've spoken to, what you've told them, etc. Kim's expressiveness serves as a great throughline in all of the confusion, too. Really looking forward to more.
comfit 14th May 2018, 3:04 PM
im really enjoying this page, the shading and colors are both Excellent. the transcript is helping me notice a lot of extra details as well, which is great!

Is the second doctor a polecat? Also, if it's not too Big of a question, do you have specific reasons for making the side characters the species they are?
Nobody 14th May 2018, 4:02 PM
Nobody
that character is a siberian weasel.
i choose the species of every side character a little differently because the context varies, but, basically, i usually go down this list:
1) any species that would work with a theme or symbolically without being heavy-handed (usually a pun)
2) any species that could probably provide valuable context at some point if they appear again, usually a similar species similar to a main character (ie. a recurring minor character for an obligate carnivore might work well if they're a carnivore too, in case i ever want to bring the topic up later)
3) a cool species i find interesting and novel and i'd like to share or stylize
4) choosing from a list i keep of species that i've drawn, how many times i've drawn them, and how common they are, to see if i can believably reuse a design i've already made or if i should have more, say, dogs populating the background to make the setting believable; too many really obscure species making up the bg characters makes the explanation for the setting weaker and distracts the reader if it's too much.
5) pulling from a random species generator.

for the horse dude, i made him equine because i honestly really don't like those animals, they make me uncomfortable even just visually, and i knew he wasn't supposed to be a likable character anyway. i went with ass/zebra to do something a little fresher than another horse dad antagonist.
i picked ass for hopefully obvious reasons, zebra because their natural markings are striking but neutral and would probably be easy to work with in the complex lighting scenario.

for the doctor, i knew i wanted to make her some kind of mustelid, most likely a weasel, because i was aware that kim is probably easily mistaken for a weasel. drawing a weasel that looks very different from her would make it visually apparent that she's not that species without having to directly try injecting dialog to explain what she is.
i picked siberian weasel specifically because they're a pretty bright orange, which would work with the orange light source, and because they're known for being a species that surplus kills, but stoat was a little bit too drab and overdone.

(hedgehog dude's species was picked because i was thinking of the hedgehog dilemma iirc. or it was just from a generator. it's been a while.)
cuttlefish 14th May 2018, 5:28 PM
This is quite good, and I thank you for making this.
~ 16th May 2018, 8:33 PM
im bouncing off the fucking WALL i'm so excited
i'm already hooked story-wise.. i love the lighting choices here, it honestly reminds me of the way the lighting was the last time i was in a hospital, haha
lets go lesbians 7th Oct 2018, 4:13 PM
"we don't want to give you anything that'd kill you. accidentally" MAN what a difference a period makes.
Bea 3rd Jun 2020, 12:28 PM
What species is kimberly!:0
Nobody 3rd Jun 2020, 3:05 PM
Nobody
she is a spotted linsang.